I checked in with my surgeon again......
My band has not slipped. I am thankful for that. I am again not able to hold any food down. I have to have only liquids. Being as warm as it is everything is cold. Its a good thing.
Apparently when I moved onto meats I got something stuck and the band area swelled up. I have to spend time babying it and going back to fluids to let it heal, and then try again.
I was very disappointed in not being able to get a fill but I don't want to do any more damage than I have already done. I have to step back and start again.
One day at a time...one step at a time....one meal at a time.....
Until next time.....
~Kasey~
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Friday, July 24, 2009
Check In Day...1st Fill Perhaps?
I see the doctor this morning. I am excited...nervous...ready....I have some questions....
Without being able to keep food down what signs should I look for that there is a problem other than I can't keep food down, which is sort of a BIG ONE! I am concerned about a slip.
If my band has slipped what can I do to correct it without having another surgical procedure. I have had enough of those for one life time. :)
Will I get a fill today? Will they watch what is going on? Like I said I have questions....
This has been a huge learning process....I keep moving forward....
I did get a compliment from a friend the other day. I am down some weight....and as I was helping him clean his garage he commented, "You are looking rather svelte." I smiled and thanked him for the compliment.....
Now not often do I have to run home later and look up a word in the dictionary, but this particular one I wasn't certain I knew the meaning of.....so the first thing I did when I got hom was to go to dictionary.com (one of my favorite websites) and looked it up. I was correct in its meaning; it means to be slender. I just had to be sure...It had me bugged.
It was quite the compliment coming from a friend I have known for a long time.
I will post again the update on my weight and appointment a bit later today!
I am excited about the weightloss and the fill. I am nervous I won't get a fill with what has been going on....which will in turn thwart some of the weight loss if I don't. It's a catch 22 but when you want something bad enough you will do what you have to do (at least without harm to myself or anyone else) to achieve the desired goals.
Again, one day at a time, one step at a time, one meal at a time.
Until next time.....
~Kasey~
Without being able to keep food down what signs should I look for that there is a problem other than I can't keep food down, which is sort of a BIG ONE! I am concerned about a slip.
If my band has slipped what can I do to correct it without having another surgical procedure. I have had enough of those for one life time. :)
Will I get a fill today? Will they watch what is going on? Like I said I have questions....
This has been a huge learning process....I keep moving forward....
I did get a compliment from a friend the other day. I am down some weight....and as I was helping him clean his garage he commented, "You are looking rather svelte." I smiled and thanked him for the compliment.....
Now not often do I have to run home later and look up a word in the dictionary, but this particular one I wasn't certain I knew the meaning of.....so the first thing I did when I got hom was to go to dictionary.com (one of my favorite websites) and looked it up. I was correct in its meaning; it means to be slender. I just had to be sure...It had me bugged.
It was quite the compliment coming from a friend I have known for a long time.
I will post again the update on my weight and appointment a bit later today!
I am excited about the weightloss and the fill. I am nervous I won't get a fill with what has been going on....which will in turn thwart some of the weight loss if I don't. It's a catch 22 but when you want something bad enough you will do what you have to do (at least without harm to myself or anyone else) to achieve the desired goals.
Again, one day at a time, one step at a time, one meal at a time.
Until next time.....
~Kasey~
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Optimism...
Even with all that is going on I am filled with optimism. A new light dawned, a new life is beginning. With the weight loss I am noticing the differences. My health, energy, and NSV (non scale victories) are increasing every day.
My health is getting better. I am hoping within 6 months to be completely off all medications but one.
My energy is increasing, I am up and doing things all the time. Rearranging, organizing, putting things away, doing laundry, dishes, playing games with the kids, getting involved more rather than being on the side lines full time.
NSV's - this list is longer than some....
Jeans that I could not wear 3 years ago I was able to put on and button up, even though they were tight I was able to wear them. My comfy jeans and shorts are currently all too big and I have to wear a belt...My underwear are too big. Nothing like going to the bathroom and having your underwear come down on their own. My shirts actually cover my stomach now not ride up.
People look at me and say, "Wow, you are looking good."
I found the scale Wolfman hid from me so I wouldn't weigh myself all the time. I started this journey at 306 and I am down to 272 but I want to know what the doctors scale says :)
I am excited and working towards what I want in life. We will see how things go again.....one day at a time, one step at a time and one meal at a time....
Until next time......
~Kasey~
My health is getting better. I am hoping within 6 months to be completely off all medications but one.
My energy is increasing, I am up and doing things all the time. Rearranging, organizing, putting things away, doing laundry, dishes, playing games with the kids, getting involved more rather than being on the side lines full time.
NSV's - this list is longer than some....
Jeans that I could not wear 3 years ago I was able to put on and button up, even though they were tight I was able to wear them. My comfy jeans and shorts are currently all too big and I have to wear a belt...My underwear are too big. Nothing like going to the bathroom and having your underwear come down on their own. My shirts actually cover my stomach now not ride up.
People look at me and say, "Wow, you are looking good."
I found the scale Wolfman hid from me so I wouldn't weigh myself all the time. I started this journey at 306 and I am down to 272 but I want to know what the doctors scale says :)
I am excited and working towards what I want in life. We will see how things go again.....one day at a time, one step at a time and one meal at a time....
Until next time......
~Kasey~
Safe Foods.....
I am six weeks out from surgery and having a really hard day. I can keep fluids down; water, iced tea and such. When it comes to solid foods the only item I have been able to keep down is canned chicken.
I thought working through foods was going to be easy. I am very limited in what I can or can not eat. Canned chicken does not even taste good. I tried some potato salad and as good as it has been for the past few weeks it is no longer a food I can stomach. It has now been 3 days since I have been able to keep anything down at all.
I see the surgeon on Friday. I am a bit concerned about having a slip...or having some sort of complication. I am not worried about not eating, I am worried about the damage that could be done to the band with the not being able to keep food down.
I will update with what is going on as time goes....I am not upset but concerned. I keep getting my fluids in and some protein as I can. Whats funny with all of this is my meds stay down.
I do not regret getting the band at all and starting this journey...its one day at a time, one step at a time, one meal at a time.
Until next time....
~Kasey~
I thought working through foods was going to be easy. I am very limited in what I can or can not eat. Canned chicken does not even taste good. I tried some potato salad and as good as it has been for the past few weeks it is no longer a food I can stomach. It has now been 3 days since I have been able to keep anything down at all.
I see the surgeon on Friday. I am a bit concerned about having a slip...or having some sort of complication. I am not worried about not eating, I am worried about the damage that could be done to the band with the not being able to keep food down.
I will update with what is going on as time goes....I am not upset but concerned. I keep getting my fluids in and some protein as I can. Whats funny with all of this is my meds stay down.
I do not regret getting the band at all and starting this journey...its one day at a time, one step at a time, one meal at a time.
Until next time....
~Kasey~
Monday, July 20, 2009
One More Day....
I would not change my decision to have the lap band at all. The positives far outweigh the negatives.
Today, however, has been challenging....I haven't been able to keep anything but water down. My usual saving grace food of potato salad was not an option. Even the hot dog I ate yesterday was good but eating a hot dog today was out of the question.
Its one day at a time and one step at a time with the band...It is a good thing and I am well on my way to losing the extra weight I have carried around for years. I am thankful....
I get to follow up with my surgeon on Friday to see how much weight I have lost and where I am at....
My NSV for the day...the pants I have been wearing for the last six months are too big! I had to put on a belt today....Wooohooo!!!
Until next time....
~Kasey~
Today, however, has been challenging....I haven't been able to keep anything but water down. My usual saving grace food of potato salad was not an option. Even the hot dog I ate yesterday was good but eating a hot dog today was out of the question.
Its one day at a time and one step at a time with the band...It is a good thing and I am well on my way to losing the extra weight I have carried around for years. I am thankful....
I get to follow up with my surgeon on Friday to see how much weight I have lost and where I am at....
My NSV for the day...the pants I have been wearing for the last six months are too big! I had to put on a belt today....Wooohooo!!!
Until next time....
~Kasey~
Sunday, July 19, 2009
BBQ Challenge....
What a challenge! Of all the food I used to be able to eat. I am not able to eat nearly as much at all. I was so careful in what I ate and how much. Being that I haven't had my first fill, I can still eat quite a bit.
I was able to have a hot dog (only one with no bun), a small portion of potatoe salad, a small piece of watermelon and a cheese dip of sorts.
It was still alot less than I usually can have but still in my opinion it was still too much.
I have been careful all day in order to plan for this afternoon get together.
I am counting down the days to my weigh in this week! I am excited!
We will see what happens.
Until next time....
~Kasey~
I was able to have a hot dog (only one with no bun), a small portion of potatoe salad, a small piece of watermelon and a cheese dip of sorts.
It was still alot less than I usually can have but still in my opinion it was still too much.
I have been careful all day in order to plan for this afternoon get together.
I am counting down the days to my weigh in this week! I am excited!
We will see what happens.
Until next time....
~Kasey~
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Weigh Ins!!
March 31, 2009 306 pounds - 1st surgical visit
May 28, 2009 296 pounds - Gall Bladder Surgery
June 11, 2009 292 pounds - Lap Band Surgery
June 30, 2009 279 pounds - 1st surgical follow up
July 18, 2009 270 Pounds - At home weigh in.
July 24, 2009 Next follow up appointment.
Woohoo!! Total of 36 pounds down!
May 28, 2009 296 pounds - Gall Bladder Surgery
June 11, 2009 292 pounds - Lap Band Surgery
June 30, 2009 279 pounds - 1st surgical follow up
July 18, 2009 270 Pounds - At home weigh in.
July 24, 2009 Next follow up appointment.
Woohoo!! Total of 36 pounds down!
So Many Things Have Happened....Let Me Tell You....
May 14th I called the surgical clinic to follow up on my letter to the insurance company to ensure they had received it for approval....On May 21st I followed up with the insurance company for the approval for surgery....
In the process I followed up with my HR Department at work and looked into Short Term Disability benefits for surgery. My manager showed me this....Apparently for short term disability you get up to 4 weeks off paid your first year if you have to be out for medical reasons. I filed the claim and then with the insurance company I found out that I got approved!! I was so excited I could hardly contain myself!!
I immediately called the nurse at the surgical clinic to let her know! Here I was on the brink of having the pain I had been experiencing for weeks gone and to start the journey into my new life!! The nurse told me she would call me back before the end of the day...Every time my phone rang at work I jumped in hopes it would be her.....by noon the next day she hadn't called so I called back to be informed that she would not be back until the following Wednesday, I was told I should be in surgery on Thursday.
I asked to speak to the Surgeons Physicians Assistant....to be told I was not on the schedule for surgery for May 28th and they didn't have the insurance approval. Not to mention that the surgeon would NOT do a gall bladder removal and the lap band surgery at the same time.....
We had been down this road a month before......What the hell!! So I finally told her that I wasn't keeping any food down now and I was supposed to wait another 2 weeks since the surgeon was going to be out of the office the next Thursday (he only does surgeries on Thursdays in the hospital).
They called me on Wednesday and I was in for surgery on Thursday...Luckily my manager understood and told me she didn't want me back to work before the next week was over. They had me in for emergency gall bladder surgery, which later I found out I had 3 gall stones and the gall bladder was "swollen" to a breaking point.
Before the surgery the surgeon came in and personally apologized for the mix up and confusion. They don't get many patients with multiple surgical requirements at one time so I "fell through the cracks" so to speak....
So the morning of May 28th comes...I can't eat or drink....not a problem...My surgery isn't until 2pm. We had scheduling issues, Wolfman had to appear in court for a ticket because he didn't have the insurance card in the truck one night when he was pulled over for a head light being out. Wolfman had to drop me off at the hospital at 11am; just as we were pulling in the hospital called. They had a few cancellations and could I come in earlier? I laughed and said yes, I was just getting out of the truck at the hospital I would be right up.
I was in pre-surgery at 11:30 waiting....I was nervous and alone. Surgery always bothered me since my first heart procedure. About an hour in a familiar face appeared around the curtain! Wolfman had gone into the courthouse explained what was going on....they dismissed his ticket and he headed back to the hospital. What a guy!! And here I thought I was going to be alone....He surely did not let me down.
The surgeon came in....explained what was going to happen....then the anasthesiologist came in....he told me they were going to give me something to like them more than I really should....after surgery I figured out why he said it.
They then pushed me towards the operating room, I remember going thru the doors down a hall around the corner, another corner then the doors opening and then I was waking up in recovery. I was told by the nurse that usually people don't last to the second set of doors. I woke up with incision pain but no pain from where the gall bladder had been....Finally the pain was gone....
I was able to go home within the hour. By 4pm that day I was grocery shopping and headed home. I was told that after 2 days I could eat anything I wanted....and all the recovery information.....
However, there was a catch......there was an issue during surgery that they could not repair due to I was already coming out of the good drug stupor. They had an issue with 2 of the incisions and it was creating a hernia. Over the next week I would figure out how bad it truly was. But they could not operate again due to I had just come out of surgery....They scheduled me for surgery again on June 11, 2009 for the lap band and the hernia repair due to that was the soonest the surgeon would be back in for surgery again, plus he did not want to put me under again for at least 2 weeks to give my body some time to heal from the gall bladder surgery.
I was not upset (until later) with the complications. The surgeon had relieved the pain I had been experiencing since March. I was happy.....
On June 11th I was the first person scheduled for surgery that day....I was excited the beginning of my journey was about to begin. I had researched and found that I thought I was prepared for the six weeks of bandster hell. I will get to that a little more later....Its a tough six weeks (I am currently at week 5 as of today).
I was at the hospital at 6;30am and scheduled for surgery at 8:30 am. My surgeon was assisting on another surgery and ended up in that surgery until 11:30am. My only thought was that if that was me I would want him taking his time for me too...so I was not worried about it....He came out to talk to me and I asked him if he wanted to take a few more minutes for a cup of coffee just so he was more alert during my surgery....He laughed and said, "No I am good...he seemed excited for me....Let's go get your new life started." I was shocked he remembered that comment. It was a comment I made 2 years ago when I had met him for the first time in a support group meeting.
When I came out of surgery.....Holy Hell!!! The pain was so bad when I was waking up.....The nurse looked at me and asked what the level of pain was....I looked at him and had tears running down my face and told him it was over 10...Even in child birth I did not experience pain like that....It was so severe when they asked me to sit up I could not....As time went on I was able to sit up....
Come to find out the surgeon used 2 of the same incisions he had used for my gall bladder surgery and had 4 other incisions too...The majority of the pain came from the band itself being wrapped around my stomach. It took 2-3 hrs this time in recovery and then I was headed home.
Home Day1:
Not being alone...I had a rotation of people in and out to "babysit" me so that if there were any complications I had help. All was good...
Day 2: Can't sleep on my side or stomach leaving sleeping on my back....I don't sleep on my back at all....Trust me you learn to do this very quickly.
I still had friends coming by about every 2 hours to keep an eye on me so nothing would happen. I have wonderful friends!
Day3: Things were better...I wasn't able to do much...and in alot of pain.....
Day 4: Extreme pain....new pain that was not there the day before.....
Day 5: Called the surgical clinic due to extreme pain -- Had an appointment to go in in 2 days..(Tuesday).
Day 7: Appointment time-
The surgeon came in and asked why I was in for a visit so soon after surgery....We talked for a bit and he pin pointed the pain and asked me if I had been taking the pain medication I went home with. I explained I could not take it due to that it made me loopy around the kids and that wasn't safe for them.
He chuckled and said, "We are going to mix you an over the counter cocktail. The pain you are experiencing is normal. Keep in mind in the last 2 weeks you have had 3 major surgeries. Your body is trying to heal."
He sent me home with a heavenly mixture of over the counter meds mixture and things changed quite a bit....I did take the good pills at night so I could sleep good with no pain then sleeping on my back would not be so bad.
We had our life challenges too with all of this....My surgery was on June 11th and we had to move on June 20th. What timing!
Week 2 I was moved from a clear liquid diet to a soup diet only...Not clear soups only but other soups with no chunks....I was not always hungry but had to get in my protein in daily.
Week 3: I was moved to soft mush foods mixed with soup....and this continued to week 4...
Week 3 was tough..It was a learning time to find out how much I could eat without over doing it. Learning how much I could eat before I was over full and in pain was the challenge. This has been a challenge since but gets easier over the course of time as you learn what you can and can't do, what you can and can't eat. Have to drink the water, sip, sip, sip....chew, chew, chew.
Week 4: I was moved to soft foods....This was a huge challenge...the confusing thing is how does your body know what is or is not going to stay down. I found out what productive burping is during this week. One food you could eat one day you might not be able to keep down the next. You don't want to take a sip of water if you feel like something is stuck. What is funny if the bite is too big, your body lets you know....If my body isn't going to keep it down I have very clear signs. Again...the water....sip, sip, sip.....chew, chew, chew.....
Week 5: I have been moved to almost all foods depending on if I could hold it down or not....I have spent 2 days not keeping anything down. My body did not want anything no matter how hungry I was. I sipped water and relaxed.
I am headed into week 6...I am headed for my first fill this next week due to I can eat some stuff but not others....I found the perfect filling meal! I was able to eat 2 boiled eggs and a nectarine. I was so full....and it was so satisfying....It was the most perfect thing in the past weeks. I can't explain it.
I was asked by someone the other day if I regretted my decision. I would say yes, but I am not through my recooperation fully. I have dropped over 20 pounds since my day of surgery and things are getting better each day. I still have trouble overall as I redefine my relationship with food.
So far my journey has been positive. It has been frought with challenges along the way. I don't believe I am alone in this, I know many others have experienced the same thing.
One day at a time...One step at a time. ..
Until next time.....
~Kasey~
In the process I followed up with my HR Department at work and looked into Short Term Disability benefits for surgery. My manager showed me this....Apparently for short term disability you get up to 4 weeks off paid your first year if you have to be out for medical reasons. I filed the claim and then with the insurance company I found out that I got approved!! I was so excited I could hardly contain myself!!
I immediately called the nurse at the surgical clinic to let her know! Here I was on the brink of having the pain I had been experiencing for weeks gone and to start the journey into my new life!! The nurse told me she would call me back before the end of the day...Every time my phone rang at work I jumped in hopes it would be her.....by noon the next day she hadn't called so I called back to be informed that she would not be back until the following Wednesday, I was told I should be in surgery on Thursday.
I asked to speak to the Surgeons Physicians Assistant....to be told I was not on the schedule for surgery for May 28th and they didn't have the insurance approval. Not to mention that the surgeon would NOT do a gall bladder removal and the lap band surgery at the same time.....
We had been down this road a month before......What the hell!! So I finally told her that I wasn't keeping any food down now and I was supposed to wait another 2 weeks since the surgeon was going to be out of the office the next Thursday (he only does surgeries on Thursdays in the hospital).
They called me on Wednesday and I was in for surgery on Thursday...Luckily my manager understood and told me she didn't want me back to work before the next week was over. They had me in for emergency gall bladder surgery, which later I found out I had 3 gall stones and the gall bladder was "swollen" to a breaking point.
Before the surgery the surgeon came in and personally apologized for the mix up and confusion. They don't get many patients with multiple surgical requirements at one time so I "fell through the cracks" so to speak....
So the morning of May 28th comes...I can't eat or drink....not a problem...My surgery isn't until 2pm. We had scheduling issues, Wolfman had to appear in court for a ticket because he didn't have the insurance card in the truck one night when he was pulled over for a head light being out. Wolfman had to drop me off at the hospital at 11am; just as we were pulling in the hospital called. They had a few cancellations and could I come in earlier? I laughed and said yes, I was just getting out of the truck at the hospital I would be right up.
I was in pre-surgery at 11:30 waiting....I was nervous and alone. Surgery always bothered me since my first heart procedure. About an hour in a familiar face appeared around the curtain! Wolfman had gone into the courthouse explained what was going on....they dismissed his ticket and he headed back to the hospital. What a guy!! And here I thought I was going to be alone....He surely did not let me down.
The surgeon came in....explained what was going to happen....then the anasthesiologist came in....he told me they were going to give me something to like them more than I really should....after surgery I figured out why he said it.
They then pushed me towards the operating room, I remember going thru the doors down a hall around the corner, another corner then the doors opening and then I was waking up in recovery. I was told by the nurse that usually people don't last to the second set of doors. I woke up with incision pain but no pain from where the gall bladder had been....Finally the pain was gone....
I was able to go home within the hour. By 4pm that day I was grocery shopping and headed home. I was told that after 2 days I could eat anything I wanted....and all the recovery information.....
However, there was a catch......there was an issue during surgery that they could not repair due to I was already coming out of the good drug stupor. They had an issue with 2 of the incisions and it was creating a hernia. Over the next week I would figure out how bad it truly was. But they could not operate again due to I had just come out of surgery....They scheduled me for surgery again on June 11, 2009 for the lap band and the hernia repair due to that was the soonest the surgeon would be back in for surgery again, plus he did not want to put me under again for at least 2 weeks to give my body some time to heal from the gall bladder surgery.
I was not upset (until later) with the complications. The surgeon had relieved the pain I had been experiencing since March. I was happy.....
On June 11th I was the first person scheduled for surgery that day....I was excited the beginning of my journey was about to begin. I had researched and found that I thought I was prepared for the six weeks of bandster hell. I will get to that a little more later....Its a tough six weeks (I am currently at week 5 as of today).
I was at the hospital at 6;30am and scheduled for surgery at 8:30 am. My surgeon was assisting on another surgery and ended up in that surgery until 11:30am. My only thought was that if that was me I would want him taking his time for me too...so I was not worried about it....He came out to talk to me and I asked him if he wanted to take a few more minutes for a cup of coffee just so he was more alert during my surgery....He laughed and said, "No I am good...he seemed excited for me....Let's go get your new life started." I was shocked he remembered that comment. It was a comment I made 2 years ago when I had met him for the first time in a support group meeting.
When I came out of surgery.....Holy Hell!!! The pain was so bad when I was waking up.....The nurse looked at me and asked what the level of pain was....I looked at him and had tears running down my face and told him it was over 10...Even in child birth I did not experience pain like that....It was so severe when they asked me to sit up I could not....As time went on I was able to sit up....
Come to find out the surgeon used 2 of the same incisions he had used for my gall bladder surgery and had 4 other incisions too...The majority of the pain came from the band itself being wrapped around my stomach. It took 2-3 hrs this time in recovery and then I was headed home.
Home Day1:
Not being alone...I had a rotation of people in and out to "babysit" me so that if there were any complications I had help. All was good...
Day 2: Can't sleep on my side or stomach leaving sleeping on my back....I don't sleep on my back at all....Trust me you learn to do this very quickly.
I still had friends coming by about every 2 hours to keep an eye on me so nothing would happen. I have wonderful friends!
Day3: Things were better...I wasn't able to do much...and in alot of pain.....
Day 4: Extreme pain....new pain that was not there the day before.....
Day 5: Called the surgical clinic due to extreme pain -- Had an appointment to go in in 2 days..(Tuesday).
Day 7: Appointment time-
The surgeon came in and asked why I was in for a visit so soon after surgery....We talked for a bit and he pin pointed the pain and asked me if I had been taking the pain medication I went home with. I explained I could not take it due to that it made me loopy around the kids and that wasn't safe for them.
He chuckled and said, "We are going to mix you an over the counter cocktail. The pain you are experiencing is normal. Keep in mind in the last 2 weeks you have had 3 major surgeries. Your body is trying to heal."
He sent me home with a heavenly mixture of over the counter meds mixture and things changed quite a bit....I did take the good pills at night so I could sleep good with no pain then sleeping on my back would not be so bad.
We had our life challenges too with all of this....My surgery was on June 11th and we had to move on June 20th. What timing!
Week 2 I was moved from a clear liquid diet to a soup diet only...Not clear soups only but other soups with no chunks....I was not always hungry but had to get in my protein in daily.
Week 3: I was moved to soft mush foods mixed with soup....and this continued to week 4...
Week 3 was tough..It was a learning time to find out how much I could eat without over doing it. Learning how much I could eat before I was over full and in pain was the challenge. This has been a challenge since but gets easier over the course of time as you learn what you can and can't do, what you can and can't eat. Have to drink the water, sip, sip, sip....chew, chew, chew.
Week 4: I was moved to soft foods....This was a huge challenge...the confusing thing is how does your body know what is or is not going to stay down. I found out what productive burping is during this week. One food you could eat one day you might not be able to keep down the next. You don't want to take a sip of water if you feel like something is stuck. What is funny if the bite is too big, your body lets you know....If my body isn't going to keep it down I have very clear signs. Again...the water....sip, sip, sip.....chew, chew, chew.....
Week 5: I have been moved to almost all foods depending on if I could hold it down or not....I have spent 2 days not keeping anything down. My body did not want anything no matter how hungry I was. I sipped water and relaxed.
I am headed into week 6...I am headed for my first fill this next week due to I can eat some stuff but not others....I found the perfect filling meal! I was able to eat 2 boiled eggs and a nectarine. I was so full....and it was so satisfying....It was the most perfect thing in the past weeks. I can't explain it.
I was asked by someone the other day if I regretted my decision. I would say yes, but I am not through my recooperation fully. I have dropped over 20 pounds since my day of surgery and things are getting better each day. I still have trouble overall as I redefine my relationship with food.
So far my journey has been positive. It has been frought with challenges along the way. I don't believe I am alone in this, I know many others have experienced the same thing.
One day at a time...One step at a time. ..
Until next time.....
~Kasey~
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